I guess my soulmate wasn’t all he was cracked up to be. You know this has to be the last time I write about him because it is completely driving me crazy dealing with this whole thing. I bet all of you are getting sick of hearing about it. I am sick of talking about it, writing about it, and seriously, thinking about it. I have no clue as to what this man wants from me. I don’t have a clue as to what God wants from me. Is it blood? I mean come on I am so fed up. I have no idea what I am doing or why I am doing it. I felt this sense of, stay where you are and hang in there. I got all these signs I had asked for and guess what?? I haven’t talked to him in over a week, no more like a week and a half. For no reason he has stopped calling me and now I have stopped calling him.

He wanted me to stay with him one evening, I did, after I wasn’t talking to him because of the same old same old. He came to my house left a note on my door, he let me stay with him, after a year, told me he never let anyone stay there before since his ex wife. I believed him, then he didn’t want a commitment and he wasn’t good for me, ok so, let me go, is what I told, him, and he quit calling, then I talked to him again three weeks later when he asked me to come stay again. That night I knew something was different, but it wasn’t him it was me and when I left the next morning I heard a voice say to me, I will not let you fall this time, and I haven’t heard from him since. I have not cried yet, well I take that back the last message I left I did cry towards the end of the message, and I told him I couldn’t believe I was back here once again and that was why I cried. Because I feel like a fool. I don’t understand anything about this whole past year. I don’t know why I held onto him for so long. It was exactly a year and a half.

I thought with time it would be different. I asked for all these signs and got them, ya know there was something I was to take from this and I guess I got it. I am so sad though. I am sad because I feel like I haven’t figured out what it was I was to learn. I don’t regret my time with Jon, and I don’t resent him or feel any bad thoughts towards him. I want him to be happy and I honestly love him enough to let him go and find that happiness. I want him to find love whether it be with me or someone else. I didn’t make a mistake in being with him, my mistake may have been giving everything I had to him and not taking anything for me in return. Where ever he is though and whomever he is with, I hope he is happy and I am finally hoping to close this chapter in my life for once and for all.

Jon, I miss you and I don’t regret a thing, but this is it. I knew one day I would get to this place. I tried my best over and over and I am worn out. I let myself need you and you taught me a lot and I wish you nothing but happiness, true love and peace, you know I knew you better than anyone and I reached a place with you not many have. I know that and I know you do too, and that is ok. Please allow me time to heal and maybe one day I can be your friend, right now it is to painful. But you are always on my mind and always will be in my heart. Just allow me the time to heal. I miss you and I love you truly, enough to say good-bye.

Vaughn Pascal

To Dakota: I love you.

To Jon: Yesterday, maybe even tomorrow, but not forever as I once thought..

Marriage is sacred, and with so many marriages ending in divorce these days, your wedding anniversary is certainly something to celebrate. You and your spouse deserve some sort of celebration, whether it is a simple dinner alone or a celebration with the entire family. Whether it is your first wedding anniversary that is right around the corner or your 25th wedding anniversary, here are some ideas for celebrating your wedding anniversary.

Wedding Anniversary Trips

One of the most popular ways to celebrate a wedding anniversary is to take a trip. Couples are so busy with work and family life, that sometimes it is hard to step back and just enjoy one another. When your wedding anniversary arrives, you and your spouse should treat each other with a romantic wedding anniversary trip. Popular anniversary locations include Hawaii, Las Vegas, Mexico, and sea cruises. Of course, for couples that are more active, or are seeking adventure, mountain climbing, camping and white water rafting are also popular ways to celebrate marriage. When you and your spouse take a romantic getaway to celebrate years of wedded bliss, you can reconnect with one another and relax.

Spa Treatments

Another popular wedding anniversary idea is spa treatments. You and your spouse can visit any of your local spas to enjoy a relaxing couple’s massage and skin treatments. Take a day to unwind and enjoy a soothing spa treatment to celebrate your wedding anniversary.

Night out on the Town

Of course, if you are young and strapped for cash, you may not be able to afford a romantic vacation or luxurious spa treatment. That should not stop you from celebrating your wedding anniversary. Even if you have young kids, your anniversary is a day when you should hire a sitter and hit the town. You and your spouse can catch a movie, a concert, or visit an art gallery and dine at your favorite restaurant. You can even spend a quiet evening at home enjoying each other. Light a few candles sit by the fireplace and just talk to each other. Anything that the two of you can, do together to celebrate your marriage will help you enjoy each other’s company.

Your anniversary is certainly worth celebrating. You do not have to spend a lot of money to have a good time at your wedding anniversary. Couples do not need expensive jewelry or trips to enjoy each other on this special day. The idea is to take the time to rekindle the flame.

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The first thing you need to know about men is this: You don’t need one. If you’re thinking, “Hey, I want one,” you’re probably on the right track.

Wanting is one thing. Needing is another. When you need a man, you come off as needy. Needy people are unattractive. What’s more, they often accept less than they deserve, whether it’s in a man, a job, or a friend. They attract it. They might as well stick “kick me” signs on their backs.

When you feel good about yourself, you tend to want love and companionship. You don’t necessarily need it. Emotionally healthy women tend to choose –and attract– men who make them happy, instead of some guy who leaves them wondering if he’ll call, whether or not he’s coming home, or if he’s getting a little on the side on his lunch hour.

Are you needy? Definitely you are:

-if you hate to be by yourself.

-if you believe that your life will be a failure if you don’t marry and have children.

-if you think getting boob implants is the best way to get male attention (you’ll get attention, all right, but not necessarily the kind that lasts).

An emotionally healthy woman enjoys her own company. She doesn’t need a man–or even her friends– around to have fun. As a result, people want to be around her. She’s attractive. She knows how to have a good time.

If you’re in the needy category and want to move out, decide to fall in love with yourself. Nobody is ever going to love you until you love yourself first.

Start by making a list of your good qualities and your talents. Stop taking them for granted. Not everybody has them, you know. Keep the list where you can see it, perhaps on your bathroom mirror. Buy yourself little treats. You shouldn’t go into credit card debt, but do resolve to do small, lovely things for yourself.

Turn off the TV chatter and spend time listening to beautiful music over a glass of your favorite wine. Be daring and take yourself out to the movies once in a while (and if you get weird looks from people, realize that they don’t have the confidence to do the things they want unless they have a willing partner in tow).

Stop hanging around people who gossip, particularly women who gossip about how other women raise their children, decorate their houses, and keep screwing up their relationships. Replace them with women who like other women. By all means, avoid any individual who implies that you’re defective because you don’t have a man in your life.

After you start loving yourself, you’ll notice a shift in the circumstances–and people–you attract. Be warned: Those who don’t have your best interests at heart will become annoyed with you and eventually drift away. You’ll find yourself surrounded by more supportive people. Before long, you’ll find yourself in the company of a man you want.

Lo and behold, he’ll want you, too.

Terry MacDonald is the happily married author of “How to Attract and Marry the Man of Your Dreams.” Sign up for free dating tips at marrysmart.com marrysmart.com . Check out her blog at happygirlmusing.blogspot.com happygirlmusing.blogspot.com

Divorce is never an easy thing to go through, nor endure emotionally during and after the painful process. Divorce is like a dose of death that deeply effects your emotions.

As someone who has personally gone through a bitter divorce due to my ex’s infidelity, I know experientially how painful this can be. When watching Larry King Live last night on CNN, Alec Baldwin talked about just wanting to die during his divorce to Kim Bassinger. Alec is a famous actor, eloquent speaker, and political activist.

What I liked most about him is his sincerity, transparency, and humility. Even though he suffered the emotional pain of divorce, he never spoke evil of Kim. Furthermore he did not hold back when mentioning his own emotional low as a result of the divorce. This is a rarity for men, who often project an inability to suffer inner pain from a relationship.

Undoubtedly divorce is an epidemic in our country. Infidelity, inconsistency, and dishonesty abound in our culture as we pursue immediate gratification and disregard anyone’s feelings along the way. We need more people to speak up about their personal pain and divorce experience. There are many life lessons to be learned from our marital failures. If we neglect to acknowledge and address such marital mishaps and mis-steps, we are bound to repeat them and later perpetuate our pain.

Let us take off the mask, acknowledge our wounds, be real, and take time to heal. As we do, we shall be able to comfort others with the same comfort we ourselves have received. By processing our pain and not shrinking back from talking about it, we can help multitudes of people who similarly suffer. I salute Alec Baldwin for being open and real concerning his personal pain, which resulted from his divorce.

Divorce is a dose of death. It is something that sideswipes us when we least expect it. Covenant breakers abound in our self-absorbed culture. Sadly it is our children that always suffer the most. Let us not be silent but learn how we can sustain love in marriage and to the best of our ability prevent premature marital breakups and divorces.

Paul Davis is author of several books including Adultery: 101 Reasons; Are You Ready for True Love?; and Breakthrough for a Broken Heart a book telling us “How to overcome disappointments and blossom into your dreams!” He is a minister, life coach (relational & professional), dating expert, popular worldwide keynote speaker, creative consultant, mediator, liberator and dream-maker.

Paul’s compassion for people & passion to travel has taken him to over 50 countries of the world where he has had a tremendous impact. Paul has served many in war-torn, impoverished and tsunami stricken regions of the earth. His organization Dream-Maker Ministries is building dreams, breaking limitations, and reviving nations.

Paul’s Breakthrough Seminars inspire, revive, awaken, impregnate with purpose, impart the fire of desire, catapult people into a new level of self-awareness, facilitate destiny discovery and dream fulfillment.

Paul can be contacted at: mailto:RevivingNations@yahoo.com RevivingNations@yahoo.com – 407-967-7553 or 407-282-1745.

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